Saturday, December 30, 2006
xmas is over but i still think this theme is so cute..
i love the candy bars!and the back foward refresh stop buttons are so cute!!!
ok so i'm gg to post some pics from indo...some...coz all the photos are taken in 7 megapix n i havent resize all of them..
my room
Fera helena n Nori came to my house
we were fooling around in the karaoke room n trying to do "jump" poses...n then my maid came in to give us watermelon..lol so embarassing.
Xmas tree full of looneytunes characters @ taman anggrek
k yeap those are some of the jakarta pics...post the bandung ones later when i have the time.
⥠a butterfly landed @ 9:30 PM
Friday, December 29, 2006
i'm back..dunno whether anyone still comes back to this blog to read but nvm i shall blog for my own pleasure,n also to release stress.
havent been blogging becoz obviously indonesian internet is sooooo damn it expensive n so i limit myself to use only msn messenger which still turns out to be overlimit n the bill was soo high.so...ok,i tried my best.then come the earthquake which makes internet so freaking slow so i did not have enough patience to wait for the page to finish loading,due to the amount of stress i'm having now,i dun have any patience for anything.
i feel juz like raissa now,i mean now i know how she must have felt then.me n fera were still laughing at how nervous she was that time,how she was worried about everything n now it's my turn.
2 days ago my worries were basically about jc,how i wont know a lot of ppl there n being new in a new place n stuff...but now my worries were no longer there.
juz came back to sg today n thus i saw the mail cjc mailed me,bla bla bla,i didt even have the mood to read. choose subj by 4th jan muz "look through the subj combi carefully" did not even exist in my mind.i dun even care wat subj to choose,its gg to be 3 mnths only anyway.i didnt even have time to worry about the 1st day in cj n stuff...
n so i called the TOEFL hotline at KL n they said the earliest possible test is 14th Jan.yeah right...how early is that.how am i even supposed to meet the deadline?! after that how to apply how to make my visa i muz buy bla bla bla do bla bla bla....exactly like rice last month.i juz hope everything goes in place smoothy n i'll be able to go in spring.i mean,if i dun go in spring,i wont even be in the same semester as chrys!i'm already 1 semester short of rice n if i'm another 2 semester short of chrys its impossible to graduate at the same time even if i take all possible classes per semester!
so i can only hope for the best n try to learn how to cook how to use the washing machine how to iron clothes how to tidy up my room while waiting for the Toefl n application.think i'm getting an agent to do it for me or i'm freaking out.how i wish i can bring my maid there with me,but if my brother can survive i can.coz i can cook better than him.hoho at most eat out everyday...
see how can i even worry about jc n jc subj combi n eevrything??i hope they dun give exams for 1st 3 months coz i'll juz flunk everything.even if i go in fall,its pointless to go jc from april to june since june is a 1 month holiday.
its funny n unbelievable how ppl can juz change their mind n make laz min decision.before this week,i was still trying to accept the fact that i'm wasting 2 yrs here n i'll be gg US 2 yrs later to spend 4 yrs getting a degree.i was still trying to accept the bitter fact that i'll be graduating 6 yrs later.n now,i'm getting what i want n yet i'm freaking up.but of course i wont just give up like that because this is what i've always wanted n now i'm getting it.
i owe it all to my brother that made my mum realise that wasting 2 yrs here is really a WASTE.thanksss sooo muchhh they should have realised it 1 yr ago then i'll be with raissa now in SF without worries n rushing.
told fer about it n she said "u promised to go through jc with me!!"
i feel guilty n bad about it but i juz cant refuse to go.i've always wanted to go soo badly...soo so so so sorry!!!
anyway,year 2007 in coming n i dun even know whats gg to happen in the new year.my future is a blur.will i stay in sg??*crosses fingers* will i go in spring? will i go in fall? will i be happy there?
i'm anticipating 2007 as much as i'm too afraid of what might happen.
happy new year everyone.
P.S:: i'm trying to write in the best english i can so that i'll do well for my Toefl.i'll tear my hair out strand by strand if my toefl does not meet the college requirements.means i learn english for 7 years in singapore for nothing.
⥠a butterfly landed @ 10:33 PM
